Mischa Fox

What is one word that describes you?

Pivot.

I’m laughing at myself because my skin crawls when I hear it at my day job… but it fits.

It’s also nicer than stubborn and more approachable than goofy😆

One thing that stands out in my life, personality, and career. My plans go awry (a LOT): pivot.

Reuse, reinvent, recycle.

Compost.

Innovate. Shift.

My brain also clocks a thousand miles a minute, so sometimes I’ve course corrected so fast that people who aren’t part of my inner circle have told me that they feel like I’m inauthentic.

I do get why it appears that way at times, if you’re not aware of all the thoughts I have, all the information whizzing at me, or all the facets of my personality… or the sharp honed survival instincts from a life of hardships…

But it really just comes down to spinning on a dime so often I’m not sure I stop anymore. I just enjoy the merry-go-round and lean fast as lightning away from danger.

One of the most important people in my life when asked this question always loved to reserve the word dichotomous for me.

It’s also a good one.

He would further explain that I had so many aspects to my personality that it scared people, since (in his opinion) most people only had one or two— and so many of mine don’t even seem to go together.

Like how I love cute things like baby animals as much as the macabre. One must be a lie.

No, I’m really that weird and love every minute of it. Besides, why hide it? It’s WAY more fun to keep people guessing with the truth.

Speaking of which…

I’m having a bit of an Ehlers Danlos crash (which has kept me mostly restricted to my couch and extra naps, including two days too weak to sit up longer than a few minutes)…

And I’ve had to spend today debating a pivot.

I thought my body had recovered enough to return to my MBA program. It is clearly disagreeing with me.

I really DID love the program and want to go back.

But I’ll have to spin to something else—either try a less intense program, or leave school behind for good for health reasons —which isn’t easy when you’re an A student and someone who struggles with high achiever/perfectionism tendencies.

To an outsider it might look like I can’t make up my mind.

What I’m really trying to do is figure out what fits… and have multiple backup plans in place (mostly because of how wicked this syndrome can be to the body) to ensure I always land on my feet.

I guess the word feline also fits…